"We" Now Means the Boys and I

         Well, it has been a rough road for the past 18 plus months and this blog will now be just a blog about me and my boys as we try to move forward and honor God. In order to save hurt feelings, there will not be a lot of details given, but things have changed a lot in my life as well as that of the boys. I think maybe the boy's lives have changed more than mine, so please pray without ceasing for them. Through all the heartache and pain I have been through over these past months, I have learned one thing, God is faithful. I'm thankful that God is not "fair" because then I would have surely been put through the wringer and maybe even not survived. When I made the choice 19 months ago to run to the arms of God, something that I should have already been doing but was not, it was only by his grace that he welcomed me back with open, loving arms. I've experienced his forgiveness and grace and I continue to be reminded by friends, sermons and worship that GOD IS ENOUGH.

        As I seek to move forward with my life, I have no idea what my future holds. I continue to pray for a miracle, but I am leaving that in God's hands. What I do know is that I have a few years left to make a positive influence on the life of my boys and I do not want to waste that. My failures serve as reminders of things I want to help the boys avoid in their own lives and my victories serve as the fuel to keep me pressing forward, seeking God and trusting in his word and promises. I can honestly say that God has taken my grief and turned it into growth, He has taken my sorrow and turned it into sunshine and He has taken my loss and replaced it with laughter.

       One thing that has changed recently is that God has placed in me a desire to write. I will use different outlets, including this blog, to put into words some of the things that God lays on my heart. I am not changing the name of my blog because as I see it I am still far from Normal and my little family of boys is far from Normal, so I think it fits. As I'm writing this, my boys are all tucked in their beds and sound asleep and THAT fills this daddy's heart. As God heals my heart he has returned a desire to my soul to write. Just a few weeks ago, he helped me pen a poem and it is only because of Him that the words could flow at a time like this.

      And that folks, just about sums it up!

Don Widener